Dirty Laundry

So today is my first day to truly be home alone.  My kiddo started school today so it is just me.  I helped welcome kids in school this morning and I will help with afternoon traffic at about 2:30.  Otherwise I am home alone...

I guess not really alone...I have my mess.  Thanks to my husband though, it is now confined to the living room and my dresser.  So here is my problem, I am anything but a housekeeper.  I keep terrible house and haven't had my laundry under control in months.  To me these are basic skills, why can't I acquire them?  I don't care for or serve my husband very well in a messy house.  Especially when I am not working.  What do I do all day?  A little of this, a little of that, some school work, some counseling homework...I will say though I do make sure the kitchen is clean and tonight I will cook dinner for us and my brother and sis in law.  I just can't get away from the fact I am a terrible housekeeper.  I want to correct this though.  I want people to be able to stop by my house at a moment's notice and not be worried about what they will see.

How to do this...how to do this...Maybe we will start very basic - "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13.  I can claim this verse for getting through great trials and tribulations so why not for something as simple as keeping a clean house.  I think so...the Lord cares about all of our struggles large and small.  If I expect him to help me on the big things why not the simple everyday things.  In truth this is one of my biggest struggles - trusting God with the small everyday things.  I trust Him to take care of the country and where it is going, I trust Him to put me in the right position, I even trust that I married the person He willed for me.  But when it come to everyday things i.e. keeping a clean house I tend to try and handle it myself.

So here we go:

Dear Lord,

Thank you for taking care of us financially during this time.  For our house that we live in, our cars that we drive and our other luxuries that we still get to enjoy.  Thank you for our health in this time we don't have insurance.  Lord I ask that you help me in the area of my housekeeping skills.  Please give me the motivation and organization to put my home in well working and cleanly order.  My daughter and husband deserve this at the very least. 

I thank you and love you.

In Jesus Name, Amen.

Who do we trust?

"When she speaks she has something worthwhile to say, and she always says it kindly"  Proverbs 31:26

I trust the Lord, my husband, and four others with everything, although only the Lord, my husband, and "spiritual sponsor" know EVERYTHING.

I suggest everyone have a "spiritual sponsor" or mentor.  One who  can admit their mistakes and who will not judge you, only counsel you with yours.  I met mine about a year and a half ago.  I know the Lord placed her in my path at a very specific point in time.  She is the one that has fasted and prayed for me, and offers wisdom and places in the Bible to find it.  However she lives 3 hours away and it's next to impossible to grab a cup of coffee.

So that leads me to my two girls that are my lifter of hands right now.  These two ladies are lifting my hands when I can't.  They are the ones I confide the good, bad and ugly in right now.  They listen and then offer counsel.  They don't speak negatively of anything I bring to them and are supportive of every decision I make.

Then there's my BFF and she is food for my soul.  Anytime spent with her is refreshing and light.  I leave feeling better then when I left.  She loves me know matter what. and is ALWAYS on MY side whether I am right or wrong.

So here is where the verse applies...How do I talk about my husband with these people?  Is it always positive or do I cast him in a negative light to them? I think the words out of my mouth should never be of anger or frustration.  I should never make him look bad to another person.  If I speak negatively out of anger then I cloud the perspective of whoever I am speaking with against my husband.  Is this really going to help me in the long run?

Ephesians 4:29 "Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."

Yes this is what I will do my best to work on right now.