So I do feel the need to write again...things have changed. There are now 4 of us! B is 14 and little J is a year and a half. I shot for a pregnancy blog...but that went down the tubes fast! Anywho here we are again. Perhaps change is the key to writing. It is time once again for change.
Change is a very funny and finicky thing I've learned. It's something that we all go through and it is unavoidable. We change our hair, we change our diet, we change the couch, and we change the car we drive. How often do we change our life...I think for the most part those changes are few and far between...so here's the question, if we are sure of the change what do we do when our spouse is not? When I say sure, I mean gut feeling, peace in my heart sure; no doubts here!! So what happens when the change doesn't come? Not by choice of mine but by choice of those around me? I mean this was the path we were supposed to take!! So what now? Where do I go? How do I rebuild and reconfigure when it seems that everything we were working for was in grasp and someone decided not to grab it? I had the brass ring in my hand and it was jerked away and thrown off the carousel! All I'm left with at this point it seems is a very out of control ride. I'm really at a loss...and to add to all this is GRIEF! And Grief is a sneaky little bitch that comes in waves and when you least expect it. Case and point...middle of the Target aisle that was full of Christmas ornaments, she found me!
Well my first step as of now is a job change...as sad as I am to leave my little safe haven, the time has come to once again take that step. I guess it is time once again to see what the real world has in store for me.
I don't think there's a Proverbs 31 verse for returning to the work force!
