Right now I am anything but the Proverbs Wife. I am so far from her that she seems but a dream. Here is my question, would a "Proverbs Wife" ever have a meltdown? I would say no, but with all the balls she juggles how is it avoidable? Maybe her relationship with the Lord is such that she never has the need, or maybe she just lives in an alternate reality.
I on the other hand am doing everything to keep it together. I feel like my sanity is hanging by a thread and who knows what at any point may snap it. Here in lies the problem, I can't afford for it to snap. I feel like if I actually let myself have a meltdown it would all fall apart. If I did what I really wanted to do, I would hole up and cry for several hours, then jump in my car and leave it all behind, but where would that leave everyone else? It would be satisfying for a short while...a day or two at most. Then I would miss my husband and would then be even more frustrated that he hadn't followed me. It also would be a terrible example to my daughter and sister.
So what is the answer? Prayer, prayer, and then more prayer. I am reading the book of Ephesians right now, maybe answers also lie in there. If I dive in to God fully and completely then He can be the one that I fall apart to, and He will not let me stay broken but will put me back together...I think that sounds like a good idea, I do believe I will try that for now.
Question: Does the Proverbs Wife breakdown?
My Answer: Yes, but she breaks down with the Lord and He puts her back together.
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