Forgiveness is evading me. I have been hurt and my heart shattered by someone close to me. I cannot find forgiveness for them. I have never hated someone before, it's not a good feeling. I do feel like the hate has subsided though. Forgiveness however, evades me. I can't seem to let this hurt go.
Do forgiveness and "letting it go" go hand in hand? Maybe if they don't then I can deal with them one at a time. I also can't seem to find God in this situation although, my sister says He's here. I thought maybe He would show up last Tuesday...I was wrong. After feeling so connected and next to Him for so long I feel so far away...it's really kind of scary. I even struggle going to church.
The funny thing is my husband has really stepped up. He is the one holding my arms up now. He has been my comforter and caregiver. He has let me sleep and made dinner. He has cleaned the house. My niece and my daughter are my sanity.
The Proverbs wife I am sure is quick to forgive. Well good for her. I will get there one day.
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